November

November is flying by! Already the baby shower for my son and daughter-in-law is upon me, and trip number one by my daughter and her husband from Oregon! How will I ever get the house clean in time, and is it even possible to wrap this box? Then at the end of November is not...

The Sound of Surviving

A song for you, Michaela.with love from mom

Another dead end

For months now I have been walking around, looking and acting normal. But behind that normal was a knowledge and an anticipation that I couldn't share. Some months ago a site was was discovered where it was thought Michaela might have been buried. I'm not going to go into all the details, but a few...

I am thankful for Michaela

Today is Thanksgiving, Michaela, and I just want to tell you that I am so thankful for you. Before you were born, I spent five years longing for you. Sometimes I look back on those years of infertility, and it feels as though God was saying to me, "Are you sure you want to do...

Come home please, wash away the pain

Forgive the obnoxious ad at the beginning of this video. Michaela, there is nothing to be forgiven. Just come home.Love you forever,mom

"You’ll be with me like a handprint on my heart…."

I was listening to my ipad today on shuffle, and this song came on. Michaela, it just made me think so much of  you.You fill my heart still. I love you.

Beautiful Music for You

Michaela this music and slideshow were created for you by Nigel Graham, who composes music for the missing. It's really beautiful. Be sure to turn your speakers on. The music is beautiful, haunting, and full of innocence. It reminds me of you. Love you forever, sweetheart.mom

Dear Michaela … another song for you

Sometimes I fall silent here, I know. There are those times when I just get really bone weary, too much so for words. And there are times when I have to keep quiet for other reasons. But Michaela, in the deepest depths of darkness, silence, and cold, I never, ever forget you. You are always...

Dear Michaela … there is nothing that I would not do…

.... to make you feel my love.

Dear Michaela … a song from Robbie

Robbie posted this youtube video today of a song he wrote recently. The first time he sang it for me, a few weeks ago, I broke into sobs. The lyrics are in the "see more" right under the video, and I know obviously that they don't exactly fit the situation, but the theme of the...